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A windy day. The hight was a bunch of noise as the high winds whistled around me. This morning I awoke lacking any ambition or direction to seek a path to any kind of fulfillment. I eventually took a brief road trip to seek some sun. A trip to the lower desert is always an adventure. The contrasts of life play out vividly in that environment. As you see a homeless man shuffle along the sidewalk while a block away people are shopping on our local Rodeo Drive (El Paseo). He shuffles along clutching his coffee as others place their Gucci bag in their Bentley. If there was ever evidence of the growing inequality it lives in Palm Desert. After a while reality set in and I drove up the hill to my humble trailer in the sagebrush.
I guess I relate more to poverty than wealth. I grew up poor. Working poor but none the less poor. I worked to buy the clothes so I fit in at school. I was fortunate to have the money to buy the trappings that allowed me to live the dream. I was the first in my family to graduate from college. One does not know the significance of that unless you have been there.
I have had an. Interesting life so far. I have seen both sides now. I have known celebrities and outlaws. I have seen this country having logged over a million miles on highways across this country. I have had conversations with people from all walks of life. Life as been a collection of experiences that have changed me. While I have been an angel or a devil at times I have strive to be better. I once was an alcoholic but learned to control that. I was once a heavy drug user but now I abstain. I have an addiction to gambling and am working on that. I have a characteristic in my personality that makes me do things to excess. In some cases that manifests itself as a passion and can be good. Other times it can lead to self destructive behavior.
I'm a lover of life. I'm a fighter for justice. I love love and hate prejudice although I have prejudices that I should suppress. When it comes to relationships I tend not to fall in love easily but when I do I fall hard. I have had only a few women I have truly loved but fate or my own failures have seen those pass. As I get older I think back on the women I have known and now know how blessed I have been to have them in.my life. All have left a mark on my soul and I am better for that.
As I type this it sounds wierd to me. It is sort of the conversation I would expect to hear in a psychiatrist's office not in a blog. Maybe this is the purpose of this blog? Take it as you will. I'm happy to have had the life I had. I have some regrets but I cannot change the past only experience the future whatever that holds.
I guess I relate more to poverty than wealth. I grew up poor. Working poor but none the less poor. I worked to buy the clothes so I fit in at school. I was fortunate to have the money to buy the trappings that allowed me to live the dream. I was the first in my family to graduate from college. One does not know the significance of that unless you have been there.
I have had an. Interesting life so far. I have seen both sides now. I have known celebrities and outlaws. I have seen this country having logged over a million miles on highways across this country. I have had conversations with people from all walks of life. Life as been a collection of experiences that have changed me. While I have been an angel or a devil at times I have strive to be better. I once was an alcoholic but learned to control that. I was once a heavy drug user but now I abstain. I have an addiction to gambling and am working on that. I have a characteristic in my personality that makes me do things to excess. In some cases that manifests itself as a passion and can be good. Other times it can lead to self destructive behavior.
I'm a lover of life. I'm a fighter for justice. I love love and hate prejudice although I have prejudices that I should suppress. When it comes to relationships I tend not to fall in love easily but when I do I fall hard. I have had only a few women I have truly loved but fate or my own failures have seen those pass. As I get older I think back on the women I have known and now know how blessed I have been to have them in.my life. All have left a mark on my soul and I am better for that.
As I type this it sounds wierd to me. It is sort of the conversation I would expect to hear in a psychiatrist's office not in a blog. Maybe this is the purpose of this blog? Take it as you will. I'm happy to have had the life I had. I have some regrets but I cannot change the past only experience the future whatever that holds.
