I always liked the title...

I always like the title of the TV series 'My So Called Life' mostly because I could relate to the whole concept. Yes, I have a 'so called life' more like an existence, not  something as fulfilling as could be called a life. Yes, everyday we are faced with challenges, everyday we have to make choices. I guess in my 60 plus years in this realm, I still have a problem facing those choices at times. 

After my Dad died I assumed the role of 'man of the family', the person responsible for all the things my Dad used to be responsible for. I handled the finances, I tried to keep up with the maintenance of the place (el ranchito). I would sit patiently listening to my Mom as she would talk about the past (why do old people  want to relive every past moment when most of them were not that happy?). 

As my Mom grows older I deal with her Parkinson's, he fading mental faculties, etc. I try to deal with the little things, groceries, paying bills, and keeping her safe. 

Right now I'm working to get this place marketable, as after I retire I don't want to live here. As I care for my Mom, that will become my new career. I just hope I live long enough to have some time to live my own life. 

I'm reading all the information about my retirement plan, looking at all the options, weighing all the pros and cons. I have to select a retirement date, something I'm reluctant to do till I see where this country is going. I have to file my application three months before that time, but there is a whole year long process that accompanies it.

Well, I may write more on this as I get closer.

"dust in the wind..."

Yes, the title describes the day, we have 25-40 mph winds, with gusts to 60 mph. Blowing dust, clear skies, cold temps. Not the kind of weather you'd want to be out in. I guess it is still reminding me that Mother Nature calls the shots here.