to the future...

Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my mother's passing. Since that time I have been trying to straighten out the mess she left behind and am still at it. Life planning has helped in some aspects, but over the years I was guilty of facilitating some of her madness, it was easier to go along rather than getting into a shouting match.

I'm closer today to seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, just hoping it isn't an oncoming train. I found it profound that I felt something strong just at that same hour that she passed a year ago as I was driving along a local road. She made the point of touching me deeply as of to say all is okay. I'm hoping she found peace, the last years of madness were horrible. You never want to have to see a loved one slowly fade away, as the person yu knew transforms into someone you grow to tolerate. Near the end she suffered, regardless of how many drugs were administered. I want to have the mental capacity to know when to let go and pass. I did it once before, dying was a easy solution to the pain I was suffering, and the feeling of being free, or pain, and being in that realm of the other side, it was so nice. My death experience was a lesson for me. It taught me that there is nothing worth worrying about material things, there are lot more important people and relationships that matter much more. I leaned not to fear death, as it is a release, a release form the 'hell' we live here on earth.

I'm now working on the next chapter in my life. I'm re-reading the book that makes up my past life and seeing where I made the wrong turns. I'm trying to correct the course and find a way to leave this realm a bit better than when I arrived. No, I'm still loving life. I'm living, breathing, and seeking my future.

Something compelled me to write this, I don't know what, but the words are written, now to quit and move on with this day,  

As for life, death, and taxes... one of the last things you have to do is make that final tax filing to the IRS if you are the survivor or the trustee of the estate. That is what I'm doing today.
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The financial industry has a strong arm collection side and calls from debt collectors can be miserable, but they are finding a way to follow you to your grave to get that last dollar (for the better health of the financial industry).

So if you think that by passing on to another realm you escape the colector, think again, your relatives may be the next target.

And you just may watch in horror as your relatives, deep in grief, fall for these people who prey on the living,  My advice, check you state law and make sure your relatives don't pay anything if necessary.